Crafting, Productivity Challenge

Decompressing and Creating – Day 3

(3/100) I lost track of the time as last week came to an end.

The first week of the semester is always pretty hectic for me. I work to get all of my binders organized, my syllabi highlighted, and lecture one understood. This semester I had a new stressor to confront: an on campus course.

In high school, I dealt with illnesses that prevented me from going to school regularly. I spent a lot of time working on independent studies and online courses and had little social interaction (greatly due to my severe anxiety). After my graduation, I took some time off school to focus on my health. Spring of 2015 was when I decided to take my first semester of college courses – a huge step for me in my mental health journey. I decided that online courses were the best route for me; they allowed me to work relatively at my own pace and on my own schedule. This also allowed me to continue my education, something incredibly important to me, without going in to a busy, and incredibly overwhelming, campus setting. However, as I’ve mentioned here before, this is my last semester of GE courses and one of them (Public Speaking) is, for obvious reasons, not offered in an online format.

So yesterday, I faced going back into a classroom for the first time in over three years.

My anxiety had been through the roof all week and I could feel myself becoming panicky as I drove myself across town to the campus. However, something happened that I hadn’t expected. After I had been seated in the room for roughly 15 minutes I no longer felt frightened but rather I felt empowered.

Don’t get me wrong, it took all of my energy and willpower to walk through the door and stay seated for the entirety of the first day, I was anxious as hell. But the longer I sat there the more I realized that this was another win for me. I had conquered another fear and I was one step closer to where I hope to be in the coming year.

The high anxiety of yesterday left me pretty exhausted and worn out so today’s productivity is a bit different than usual. I’m spending my day crafting and lounging and creating some neat new pieces. Today’s productivity includes working on the things I love and being proud of myself and my small victories.

And for a small, yet shameless, self promotion all of the goodies I’m working on today will be listed in my shop by the end of this week. There’s already a bunch of neat stuff listed so feel to check it out and message me with any questions or special requests! Some of my personal favorites include: a lovely pink dream catcher adorned with turquoise elephant beads, some simple charm choker, a dreamy yin-yang painting, and the intricate triple layered dream catcher. All original, handmade pieces and all found on my etsy shop.

I hope everyone has a chance to relax this weekend and enjoy some well-deserved “me time”

And never forget to celebrate your personal victories, no matter how small.

m.m.t.

Productivity Challenge, Studying

100 Days of Productivity – Day 2

(2/100) Again, I know this post was supposed to happen yesterday, but today and tomorrow are my catch-up days so I’m doing my best here. Tuesday’s agenda included:

  • Work from 9am-1pm
  • Finish studying chapter one of elementary statistics
  • Begin chapter thirteen of history of Western Art
  • Adjust my budget and finance plan
  • Try not to cry as a I adjust my budget and finance plan

This week has been off to a pretty good start. I’m still really working to get myself completely organized so that’s always hectic. But I’d count day 2 as a success.

Productivity Challenge, Studying

100 Days of Productivity – Day 1

(1/100) Okay, I know this post was supposed to happen yesterday but the first day of the semester was just a tad bit too overwhelming. Day one’s (Monday’s) line up included:

  • Work from 9am-3pm
  • Set up my (color coded) course binders
  • Finish scheduling my week and organizing my planner
  • Begin chapter one of elementary statistics

Best of luck to everyone beginning their fall semesters. Work hard!

 

Studying

The Year Ahead

Never before have I been this anxious about starting a new semester.

Every time a new semester rolls around I frantically try to get my shit together from the chaos that was the previous finals week. This term, I’m not only stressed from trying to reorganize my life (yet again) but I’m actually really nervous for what this next semester will bring.

This is my last semester finishing up all of transfer requirements. I have FOUR courses left and then I have completed all of my CSU transfer and general education requirements. I am FOUR courses away from being able to transfer to my dream school.

And I am so extremely anxious about all of it.

I’m really excited to hit the ground running next week. I’m looking to finish out a really strong note.

And I’m actually submitting my Spring 2017 application as I type this. My plan is finish up this semester and then attend the CSU in my home town for the Spring 2017. After this, I’m hoping to move out to my dream school and pursue my masters degree beginning in the Fall of 2017.

This next year should be an interesting, and quite busy, one. Starting next Monday (my first official day of the semester) I will be attempting a 100 Days of Productivity Challenge!

Here’s to a great new school year.

m.m.t.

Personal

A Quick Note (to Self)

Honestly, sometimes I forget I have blog.

I think the idea of a blog has been so intimidating to me that I shy away from it until I forget about or give up on it completely. I always felt like there was niche that I was supposed to fit into perfectly, some category that I needed to seamlessly blend into, that the thought of exploring and expanding outside of those lines frightened me into uncomfortable silence. Writing has always been my outlet, and I think the thought of expressing myself in such a raw and vulnerable way had kept me limited. But I’d like to think of this time around as a clean slate, a fresh start in experimenting and creating within myself.

I have a lot of exciting ideas swirling around in my head and now my biggest goal is to put them onto paper and express them in the best ways I know how. Within these next couple of month I’ll be embarking on some personal journeys and I’d love to be able to document them and allow them to fuel my creativity.

My goal is to post here at lest twice a week (depending on the state of the whirlwind in my mind). But I’m hoping to start expanding what I allow myself to create, express, and share here.

Fingers crossed I can quiet my anxiety long enough to share my passions here.

m.m.t.